I love my fiance very much. The problem is, though, that she was my first but I was her second, so our first time was two totally different experiences. And, we will never be able to share that moment together. Also, everytime I think about it, I also get these mental pictures of "them." He turned out to be abusive to her and the last months were very bad and she says that there's not a day that goes by that she doesn't wish she could take it all back. I want to know how to get over my hangups though, because it's ruining our sex life. Everything was fine until today when it finally bothered me so much that I had to bring it up. Up until now, she was fine and I tried not to think about it so much. Please help me see that it's just us now.
troubled sex life